“This is not me…if you only knew…=(“
I do not know what to call this stupid feeling… but for as far as i know, i am not like this. I never acted like this before. Whose to blame? I don’t know. But i became like this because of what so called true love that i have for you…
Grrr….it’s really unfair, you know. I never wanted to be a “drama queen” that cry tears because of insecurity and insincerity of your word. I always cry because I feel unimportant and everything i do to make you feel good are all worthless to you. It hurts you know?..it really hurts. And I really hate being in pain. I’m tired of being blinded by this. And if I know it’s your job to catch me from that…but it seems like you don’t care…=’(
I really don’t mind if my phone is 0 balance. It was never been my hobby to be a texter. But because of you, I now manage my load to be unlimited just to keep in touch with you. but it seems worthless to you….=,(
I don’t care if someone have already eaten their breakfast or dinner…I don ‘t even mind if they are starving…but here i am… trying to be updated with what is happening in every second of your life…. wishing i could keep an eye on you… but it’s nothing to you….=’(
I’m not caring..but here i am caring for you…and it’s driving me insane… I never wanted to get hurt…but here i am…suffering…i never wanted to give my heart away…but here i am…taking the risk for breaking my own heart again….
Even I’m suffering, even i cry every night, even though i knew from the very start I’ll deal with things that i hated, I still chose to love you…I don’t know why… but maybe it’s because of what Jesus did to me…But i guess it doesn’t matter to you…
Right now, I do not know who am I…Because all these things that i am doing right now, are not the things that i used to do and never been the things that i dreamed of doing…
I guess i just love you…just like how Jesus loves me…That’s all i knew…and it’s no longer I…whose doing it i guess…because when i get back to my senses, I have come to realize that this is not Me…but i guess you don’t even care…=’(
